Uncharted

A couple of nights ago, I was having a really hard time. A perfect storm of work and personal funk hit, and I just could not pull myself together. Do you ever feel that way? It just happens sometimes. There’s usually not all that much to it either; it could be a misunderstanding with someone, exhaustion from a couple nights of poor sleep, too much on your plate, or a plethora of other little things that under just the right circumstance…totally sets you off. That was my night.

There was a moment in my night where I chose to succumb to my funk, cancel my plans with the Bean and ourย  friends, put on my jammies, and find the jar of Nutella and a spoon. In that moment, I chose to choose tomorrow to be a big girl, a spectacular sweetheart, a good friend, and a mom who follows through with promises. Tomorrow would be easier. I could handle it all…tomorrow.

At that moment, a song popped into my head. I went to my computer and pulled it up.

Isn’t she freaking awesome?

The lyrics I pulled from the song at that moment were:

“Though I may be going down, I’m taking flame over burning out. Compare where you are, to where you want to be and you’ll get…nowhere.”

For whatever reason, I knew I needed to choose to be the girl I wanted to be, right now. Not tomorrow. I didn’t want to be, “stuck under this ceiling I’ve made”.

It’s back to that whole idea of the difference between pain and injury. In running, and in life, there is a big difference between the two. The other night, I was in pain. I was in no way injured. I did not need rest, or self pity, for an injury. I needed action and choice of attitude. I found myself incredibly humbled (and blessed) in the midst of it, because I was not the only person who chose to not wait until tomorrow. That’s the thing about choice of attitude. It’s contagious. Whether I caught it, or gave it, the choice was to deal with the pain and run through it, to live, to laugh, to choose…right now.

I changed out of my jammies, had a great time out with the Bean and our friends, and an incredible night with the Sweetheart.

I want to reach what I am capable of today, today. While everything else may be uncharted, I am always capable to choose my attitude, to live with positivity, and to share that with others.

What can you choose to do, today, that you’ve been putting off?

5 Comments to “Uncharted”

  1. Pay the bills. ๐Ÿ™‚ Haha… no seriously, thanks for this post. It’s a good reminder that it’s better to live life to the fullest each and everyday and not put things off til tomorrow. What’s that line from The Music Man? If you keep putting things off until tomorrow, you’ll find that you have a lot of empty yesterdays… or something like that. ๐Ÿ™‚

  2. i NEEDED that song. like more than you can know ๐Ÿ™‚ uncharted territory terrifies me. sometime paralyzes me. thanks for sharing ๐Ÿ™‚

  3. i love this! i’m not a music buff (or even close), but i always seem to find symmetry in life an music.

    this sounds like such a small thing, but i have been meaning to call my best friend in california for literally 28 days. i don’t know why i keep pushing it to the side, but i’m off to find my phone ๐Ÿ™‚

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