31 Days Later

One month ago today, I sent an email.

I cannot imagine being able to fully describe the events that have unfolded since that email. I hope that I’ve done it justice as a writer, at least in a small sense. Wrapping my mind around the past month is still elusive to me…but I find more clarity, and strength, each day.

On October 17th, I learned who my birthmother is, and more importantly…I learned where she is.

Days later, the following Tuesday, I decided that I would write to her. With fear in my heart, I slipped a simple card into the mail.

On Thursday of that same week, a similar experience was shared by two people, who at that point had only one thing in common. Over the course of a single day, two women lived mirrored events…worlds apart.

Now, after 7 years of wondering, worrying, and waiting…

Today marks 1 month since I began the official search for my birthmother, with an email to Search Quest America.

Today marks 3 weeks of conversation with my birthmother. We’ve shared emails, phone calls, tears, surprises, but mostly… joy.

Today also marks the final day that I will not know what it feels like to look into the eyes of the woman who chose to give me life, and who now chooses to give us, a second chance.

It’s been quite a month.

And all along

I believed I would find you

Time has brought

Your heart to me

I have loved you for a

Thousand years

I’ll love you for a

Thousand more

Thank you so much for reading, supporting, laughing and crying with me over the last month. Please forgive my temporary absence over the next few days.

Find your joy. Enjoy the journey.

 

14 Comments to “31 Days Later”

  1. My eyes are welling with tears…tears of Joy!

  2. Oh Jamie that song… that song is beautiful, and fits just perfectly, doesn’t it? I think I am going to send it to my mother.. she loves getting songs and poems from me that are “just us”, and this is definitely one of those things. I may have to share it on my FB page, too, because it definitely touched my heart in some way.
    I take it from the last line of your entry, you were about to meet Her… How did that go? I hope it is everything you hoped for — i know i didn’t have too many expectations, i just SO wanted to see her, to “feel her presence”… to just BE with her…. so for me, everything was just fine – wonderful in fact. 🙂
    good Luck Sweet Girl!!!

  3. Jamie, you are an extraordinary writer, your beautiful words have just moved me to tears. I wish you and your mother a wonderful reunion. Find your own joy in just being together again, the time will fly by.

  4. …all choked up! So happy for you

  5. Jamie!!!!!!! I am SO happy for you! No need to ask for forgiveness ~ enjoy every single moment, bask in the joy as long as you need. (But don’t be surprised if the joy turns to confusion/sadness.)

    Don’t forget to breathe!

  6. So happy for you, and thank you for sharing this experience with us.

  7. This is such an exciting time for you! I’m glad I started reading your blog when I did!*

  8. What a beautiful song! And so meaningful… Enjoy YOUR day tomorrow. Dad

  9. Thank you for sharing this journey with all of us! It’s such a great story and you’ve told it beautifully! Best of luck! I’m sending warm thoughts and wishes your way!

  10. You have been on my mind all weekend. I hope every single moment was full of joy and love for your families and yourself.

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